Wow!! Today probably couldn't get much worse! It was Bittersweet, considering it was best friend Kaylee's 20th birthday and yet, over text messaging, lost my job, aka source of income, tonight. So far in the month of January, not much good has come, but i guess i wake up every morning, realizing its a New Day and their will always be a High and Low. My job as a nanny really became a lifestyle, i watched one of the best babies ever to be born! I truly love her with all my heart and appreciated the time i spent with her. 8 months of watching Lillybug grow in learning how to say "Mamaa", in seeing her first teeth come in, watching her learn how to crawl, roll over, and now begin to take her first steps. She loved to sit on my lap and read her favorite book, favorite was "Baby Beluga" as we would sing along! She was such a doll and such a blessing in my life, it kinda felt that after i was let go, i felt like i lost somewhat a daughter. Letting go of people in your life, or moving on from situations that had some stability to your routine is something i always struggle with and im never good at.
I am frustrated with the way that my life is turning out to be so far for this new decade in 2010. I see my friends that live away from home, traveling the globe, experiencing moments they will treasure, and its hard to swallow, when im here feeling stuck in stationary mode, not moving, just watching life pass me by in a way. Today i learned that it was a hard day, it would have been a year to this day January 18, 2010 that i would have been dating my ex-boyfriend for a year. I know im in a better place now, but flashbacks still always linger in my mind. I am learning to find the happiness in the simple things in life, and be grateful for a roof over my head when its raining and a family that loves me even when we go through struggles.
I know that in life, Men will always let you down, but the Lord is faithful and His promises endure!!
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